Thoughts, Dreams and Feelings

My Search for Serenity

TEENAGE WORLD

They say our lives are filled with glory

But if they knew, they'd be sorry

The sex, the drugs, the rock-n-roll

They say WE make them feel so low.

Why don't they say,"Hey let's talk awhile?"

You know I'm no longer a child

Listen to what I've been trying to say

Before you go on your way.

Our teenage world isn't what it seems

Your light that was there, never gleems

Why do you hate us? Why do you scold?

Is it a crime just growing old?

They tell us about the good ol' days

Where did we pick up OUR bad ways?

Hey, I'm just a small town girl

Growing up in this teenage world

They say it's not THEIR fault

We should've listened to what THEY taught

They can't understand what's going on

When will they see the light of dawn?

EMH 1-20-82  3:58 AM

Copyright © 1982 Eveie

( this was my first poem, I was 15 1/2 years old at the time this was written)

Our LIfetime

Our Lifetime is like a rainbow

When it ends, there is a pot of gold

In between, the colors so bold.

Our Love...seems like the sun

Sometimes so bright, lying low all night

How can it be right?

The End

We know it's there

Someone will cry, maybe even die or maybe ask why?

We feel the pain, when the sun goes away

We see the rain.

Then the rainbow will shine

and again you will be mine

We will see the colors, one by one and when it is done

We will finally find.......our pot of gold.

EMH 7-29-84

Copyright ©1984 Eveie

A Story of Love

We see love as an emotion shared by two people who want nothing but each other.

Who laugh, who cry, who see the same dreams; who shed the same tears. We see love beautiful for love itself:

Candlelit dinners for two, moon-lit walks on a beach, love for being together. What do we see when one is away from the other?

We see an illusion of lonliness. Being alone. The fear of the end. Fading smiles and broken hearts, we realize from our shattered dreams that love fades and darkness rises above us.

Love is an emotion-filled fantasy that you cannot see or touch, an emotions you feel deep within your heart. Special as it may seem, it can leave you cold as a stone. So cold, that you shiver and cower away from others who want to love you for you and not for a selfish fantasy of their own. We turn away from love's games and tell ourselves it is a curse of the heart. We lie to ourselves and believe that love cannot happen. When it does, we turn into our own fears and start again, only to see each others illusions the same:

Cursed hearts spreading an emotion-filled fantasy that will leave you stone cold to cower in darkness.

EMH 3-15-85 3:19 A.M

Copyright ©1985 Eveie

Someday

Someday, I know I will die

I wonder if, a soul would cry

The tears and fears of a life long lived

buried deep with every sin.

Someday, I know my ghost shall arise

and conquer those, who betrayed me with lies

The anger and hurt I've felt so long

Will burn them down, where they belong

Someday.........

I know, the Earth will fade

A lot of people, who have been betrayed

Why is it the good always die?

the bad go on inspite of their lies?

EMH 4-5-85 5:44 A.M

Copyright ©1985 Eveie

Falling

Lost and alone, afraid to let go

Free to sore, but the pain it shows

Hold on I can't, be free to dance

and play and sing with this thing called freedom.

Let go I fear, pain is near

I feel I see, but what do I REALLY need?

Words can't express, what is really best, for me....for me

I cry I hesitate, I know it's too late

For love to bloom again, between strangers of the heart, doomed from the start

Help me, I'm falling......apart!

EMH 12-02-85  ( also has guitar chords to go with)

Copyright ©1985 Eveie

Realize

Days come, days go

Some fast, some slow

You don't look back, you fear the pain

You feel the future, what must you gain......or lose?

You must look in and explore, every door.....you must know

Right from wrong, the words to the songs.......you feel.

The emotions you need, you must grow from that seed.......you were born from.

You learn from your sorrows, they are the keys to your tomorrows.

Reach out and see, is it true or fantasty?

You must realize, it's not in the skies, or in the eyes of a fake disguise, it's you!

Realize.

EMH 12-23-85 ( recieved replies back from CA. NYC, TX, to publish in Anthologies)

Copyright ©1985 Eveie

Lonesome Stairway

Go away, lonesome stairway, you've been here before

Don't enlighten no fears, don't open closed doors

Look to the new, present company, a special few.

We are tomorrow, not to beg or borrow

So, go away, lonesome stairway, go away.

Do  you fear the pain of a lost soul to gain?

Hate and destruction, a bleeding strain?

Do you see the lives left open?

Do you care for the hearts left broken?

By a special few, who thought they knew their prey

Walking up a lonesome stairway.

They shall beg for and borrow life they past, forgotten tomorrow

Feel the cold, lonley sorrow

Climb astray, a lonesome stairway.

You will see what you don't want to be, reality turned fantasy

By a lonesome few or a lucky few

Climbing a lonesome stairway.

EMH 12-29-85 1:58 A.M

Copyright ©1985 Eveie