Thoughts, Dreams and Feelings

My Search for Serenity

FIGHT FOR WHAT IS RIGHT

 

Sunrises and brightens the shadows bringing forth another day

I smile as I look east, have a smoke, drink my O.J

Turn on some Jazz, giving music to the scene

As I exhale, my view now, so serene.

 

I begin my day’s tasks, so many letters to write

It shouldn’t be this hard to stand up for my rights!

Intelligence insulted, patronized, and degraded

All these thoughts I try to convey today

Another step forward, as I march on my way.

 

Simple common sense is all I want

Treat me decent, as well as others, no more taunts!

Investigate what is wrong, not formulate your own thoughts

Do a job that has requirements and rules

Instead of screaming at us, like we were fools!

 

Growing old, being disabled, or being poor

Shouldn’t feel like a crime no more.

Why discriminate, intimidate, I am not a child

Why scream, pout, slam doors, never smile?

You call yourselves professionals, now act that way!

Stop adding to the stress of other’s internal dismay!

Just do your job, follow procedures and rules

It isn’t US that need to obey!

 

 

EMH

1-25-05 9:25 A.M

© Eveie

 

 

Good-bye, David!

How do I say good-bye
Wipe the tears of grief from my eyes
Once again...I try

Missing a friend, he was a God send!
Laughter and joy, he gave to everyone
All the way to the end.

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust
Still makes me smile,like all his jokes
How we would all laugh until we thought we would bust.....at the seams!
I still hear him walk Daisy in the mornings,
Maybe it is just in my dreams.

Family to me, this gentle soul came to be
All the times he spent at my home, checking on me, sharing with me, bringing "goodies" to me.
He truly cared, he honestly and openly expressed his love, his wishes, his friendship.......
Never was he ever mean.

3, 4, 5 times a day
He crossed my threshold, and I was blessed by his existence
In every possible way!
The minutes, the hours he would sometimes stay
I will miss those times
Oh how I still expect him, to walk in the door
Oh how it hurts that he never will, anymore.

His spirit all around me,telling me,"Hold your head up high"
I feel him so strongly, saying, "Be strong, don't cry"
So a smile I will wear, as I close my eyes, and reminisce
For all those good times, remembering my best friend
I will always miss!

EMH
3-14-05
6:13 a.m.

© Eveie

WHY

Why are you treading on me?
For speaking my mind, sometimes maybe I AM blind!
Cant you people understand pain?
Gee, Ev isnt herself lately , did anyone ask WHY???????

I have sat back so long, listening, working, busting my ass
10, 14, 16 hours a day, but excuse me for chosing to ASK
Where I stand?
In all these policies and procedures made up to proceed
Then I am pointed out for asking questions, Im not the ONE
FULL OF GREED!!!
I was here for you all, anytime you needed anything at all
my shoulders were HUGE, and I caught that big BALL
I tried to keep it rolling, the best I could do.
Now all I hear is all I am not, "Hey this is what people now think of you"
So if this is all TRUE?
Well tell me to my face, dont sit and hide!
I am straight to the point, and im not going to LIE!
Humiliated TWICE in one weeks TIME
and people are wondering WHY im standing
on that line!
Drug into Drama, something I CANNOT stand!
Just leave me alone, if you cant UNDERSTAND!
EMH
05-13-05
10:36 am
MST
© Eveie

To Sandro, My Rainbow!

I woke up this morning
Looked out my window, enjoying the view
The spectacular rainbow I saw, reminded me of you!
Rain beating down, as the traffic goes by
Doesn't matter to me, I've got sunshine
I've got my Sandro, he's my rainbow.
He makes me smile, he warms my heart
He sends me e-mail, makes me smile
As every day starts.
People walking by, walking so fast
I want to yell "Look up at that rainbow!"
Enjoy it while it lasts!
For at the end as it fades, you never know, those colors so bold

If indeed you will meet, the one true one
Who is more priceless then any pot of gold.


EMH
6-2-05
1:15 pm

© Eveie

To Sandro: My Number 1 fan! MUAHHH!! Kisses and Hugs, this one is for you!! Mia bella!!!


 

Babyears Turns 16

Today my babygirl, is all grown up it may seem
For today, my babyears, turns her Sweet Sixteen!
Although so far away, today
I hope and I pray
that on this special birthday
She can feel my arms wrapped around her
As she awakes, rubs her little eyes
and begins, her Special Day!

I can remember that special night
As I gave birth to my bundle of delight!
The first time I looked into her little eyes
Her first steps, her first,"Mommy, Why...?
It hurts me so, that I can't be there
Today most of all, Oh how much I miss her
Oh how much I care!

Today I hope she has the most perfect day
As she celebrates her special 16th Birthday!
As she has grown into a beautiful young girl
Ready to explore this great big world!
I send her all my love each and every day
Moreso, this day, as I close my eyes
and think back to that special night
oh how her little eyes sparkled, her spirit a glow
All 16 years ago!

All my love to you my darling Angela!
Happy Sweet 16~
I love you so very much!!
Mom
XX OO

8-23-05
7:36 AM