Thoughts, Dreams and Feelings

Hey everyone!!! Yep! Moved again!! Nice to know I was renting that place in Campbell from someone who didn't even OWN it!! Nice, eh? Well after a lot of screaming at me drunk girfriends I HAD ENOUGH! The lies the Bullshit, I AM NOW GONE!!! I live in my hometown of NILES, OHIO!! AWAY FROM THE DRAMA!! WHOOOOOO HOOOOOOO!!

Glad to see the folks that joined up!! That means a lot to me!! I will write another blog later being I am at the library!! Pray for Tim... LORD knows he needs plenty of it!!!

Blessings!

DJEV

  Good Morning, Everyone, as it really is winding down to the end of 2008 here this Sunday morning my thoughts, dreams, and feelings reflect over the past year. I think of the losses of the greatest of greats we have lost; one in particular Richard Wright. If you do not know who that is, wow, then you are either too young or out of touch. Richard Wright was a partner with David Gilmour that made up Pink Floyd. I was blessed to be able to attend a Pink Floyd concert in my lifetime, front row! Wow! It was 1988, The Momentary Lapse of Reason Tour. I can still remember watching the clock on the wall and being so excited to call in at EXACTLY 10 am when tickets went on sale and having the number already in speed dial...LOL!! Imagine my back then boyfriends surprise when I called him at work to tell him we got the tickets front row! Amazing show! I remember sending a rose backstage to David Gilmour! Those were the days! We lived in East Mesa back then. My boyfriend at the time worked for a company there, can't remember it off hand, but they built the Hughes Helicopters there! Impressive job! I remember he got me a German Shepard puppie, whom I named "Tasha" she was an awesome Dog!

  Other things this year... I remember watching a Baptist church in Shelby, Montana with an awesome Pastor split in two!! Now this was, or has to be the most awful thing I ever seen!! Due to some people thinking that this Pastor was wrong!! You know? I think there is a special place in hell for people that JUDGE a pastor!! Yes indeed! The good news? This Pastor and over HALF of that former congregation started another church! I have a special place for this Pastor, due to the beginning of 2007 when this Pastor was there for me when NOONE and I mean NOONE else was. Pastor Paul, you are one blessed man of GOD!! God Bless You always!!

  We sure lost a lot in 2008... the worst economy EVER ON RECORD!! My Dad had 2 major operations, I remember flying here to Ohio in early March due to he had an Arterial Bypass surgery and bless my church, who paid my rent AND my plane fair to get me here to be with my Dad. God is Good alllllll the time!! I finally moved here, gave up my house I was renting ( I LOVED THAT HOUSE!!) gave up my little car, actually gave up everything I owned basically to take a 37 hour train ride to come here and move in with my Dad to help him try and save his home due to forclosure.... just this week, my Dad's attorney's told him that the bank is "unwilling to work" with my Dad. I just wonder where all that "BAILOUT" money went to help people facing forclosure went, huh? It really starts to make me angry that auto-makers got bailout money, WallStreet got bailout money, but what happens to the people that got screwed by the predetory lenders? Oh I know this answer, like they told my Dad? "You should've read the contract" That's what they said, no joke! So, they get away with it, and my 68 due to be 69  in January Dad who is in bad health, is left with nothing and has to start all over from scratch! Because he was told one thing, and now these lenders say another, and it is TOTALLY legal! Somehow, this just seems like a bunch of crap! They take your home, they take your credit, but they tell you, "Don't worry! You can file bankrupt!" Sure! IF YOU HAVE $3500.00 to DO so, and if you had that kind of money? You wouldn't be in forclosure in the first place!!! So, we will be out of a home, too, another loss in 2008!!

  Then on a happy news, there was the guy who threw the show at President Bush, I would give anything to been that guy! I swear! I WOULDN'T have missed! But then? I would've lined up a few more people to throw my shoes at! Like that Poulson dude! I think I would've bought a pair of Stiliatos (sp) for that jerk!! probably a few pairs, and when I was throwing them? I would've said, "Let go of that money, You jerk!  Then there are these banks! I am blessed, I have a really good one, and was at least smart enough to keep my bank in Montana, but I would link up the c.e.o of CROOKS OF AMERICA... er umm Bank Of America and say "Hey you!! Why do  you send out letters to people giving them some shred of hope, and when they call? You tell them oh its just a "form letter" Oh yeah this idiot would get a few shoes thrown at HIS/HER face too!!   And last but least....... To the morons who put together the "family services" for the state of Ohio... Are you people on Drugs??? Ok........ When I lived in Montana.... I got food stamps, AND MEDICAID.. gee I don't know BECAUSE I AM ON SOCIAL SECURITY, SSI, and DISABLED.... I PAID INTO this system when I worked MY ASS off!!! ok? but oh no! I moved here to HELP out my Dad, I give him $300 a month, 1/2 utilities and so we go down to these idiots!! I am told  that NOW... I will receive $18 a month in Food Stamps, I HAVE TO , (love this..not) PAY $63 A MONTH, YES A MONTH for my Medicaid, and that MY DAD, DID NOT SAY I was paying utilites, even THOUGH HE SIGNED a statement saying so!!! I have NEVER in MY lifetime seen such a corrupt system !! oh yeah they only give my Dad $14 a month in Food Stamps! Now that is a place in which I would like to find who is in charge and throw my shoes at too!!

The letter in which I received yesterday? EVEN goes on to tell me when I pay this "SPENDOWN" for my Medicaid, I am supposed to recieve my "Medicaid Card" in the mail WITHIN 5 days!! This month, we went in on the 16th of December.. I was NEVER given my Medicaid card YET to this date!! My idea? TOO MANY CHIEFS... Not enough Indians!!! What a joke! You have to call and call and call and call... just beause you have a caseworker too damn lazy to enter all this information in THEMSELF!

  Ok Yes, that last part has me really upset!! It is really bad here in Ohio!! Our unemployment rate is 7.8% When I got here, by train? My cousin picked me up, and we drove through Youngstown, Ohio.... I grew up just outside of it. My Dad is from Youngstown. I have to tell you all in no uncertain words? I literally cried! Once, a striving steel town, Youngstown is now almost a ghost town, driving through it, to get to Campbell,Ohio where my cousin lives with his wife, was so sad to me, I was crying! I was  asking him what happened to everything, as he explained to me, everything is gone! You see I haven't been in Youngstown Ohio since I was just a kid. As years have gone by, all the steel mills have closed, the people lost their jobs, and moved away! Homes, are now boarded up, and I DO NOT mean just a few, I am talking almost every single one of them... I could not believe what I was seeing! It was like somthing out of a movie to me!! IT is SAD!! Idora Park, once a thriving place we went as kids, held a record in the Guiness book for the world's largest wooden rollar coaster....... gone! ALL GONE! The one thing that from our childhood is still there.. Mill Creek Park! In which we walked through. Sad, as all the memories rushed though our heads, my cousin, his wife, and I walked though it mostly in silence. We seen others there but they seemed to have the same look about them.

  How can a complete city just start to disappear off a map?? The saddest thing I have seen In 2008 had to be the disappearing of Youngstown, Ohio! Every once in awhile, on the end of your mailboxes you will see it, Made in Youngstown, Ohio. Good Ol Youngstown STEEL!! See that is why Pittsburg, Youngstown and Cleveland were known as... Steel towns... in fact, that is how the Pittsburg Steelers got their name.....Proud Steel workers!! Yes, The Pittsburg Steelers will always be my favorite team.... but maybe for reasons to remember all those steel workers who lost their jobs! Now, making one little town....Youngstown, Ohio...erased from the map, forever!

Goodbye 2008~ I look forward to 2009, I look forward to change!! I have Faith, Hope, and Love... I will "Walk by Faith, not by sight" as it says to do in 2 Cointh. 5:7 in The Holy Bible and I will also look forward to a NEW PRESIDENT Barack Obama!! HE IS CHANGE to our country, but with A LOT OF WORK TO DO, a country who wants quick answers but needs to be patient!!

God Bless all of us in 2009!!

Hey everyone!! Well here it is... Christmas Eve! I hope everyone is all ready for Christmas this year! I know it's been a very rough year for all! With the forclosure rate, unemployment rate, our economy is out of control! But let us NOT forget the TRUE meaning of the season.... OUR SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST! I know I know a lot of you are saying blah blah blah... But you know? I USED to say that as well. So, let me just give  you an example of what happened to me just the other day, ok?

I didn't have much money this year for Christmas, due to well as many of you know, my father himself, is facing forclosure on his home here in Ohio. In March, my father went through his second Arterial bypass surgery; he has P.A.D or in english... Hardening of the arteries. He is 68 years young. So.. I decided in August to give up my very first house I finally was able to rent in all the years of apartment living, to give up my car, and come here to Ohio to help out my father... now... also keep in mind? I've not seen my father, until this past March, in approx. 8 years! Not by choice, just money wise, we both couldn't afford to visit. So, through it all I got here and we were able to try and try and try to come up with a living arrangement to try and keep his home. Well, this week we found out that his attorney's told him, "it's not looking good" So? My fathers blood pressure is through the roof, due to he is constantly worrying about when the bank is going to come and knock on our door. My father is a victim of one of those predatory lenders... so, not much we can do, as I told my father yesterday, I said to him,"Dad, you cannot worry about things beyong your control" and this is true for the rest of us!! 

  I noticed awhile back that one of my father's programs on his computer, probably some bundled software he received when he bought this computer, was expired and if I enrolled in this book club, which by the way, was one I used to belong to years back, that I could register this program... COOL!! So, I did, received the "key" and hooray! We now once again have Coral on the computer... and I now have "Crossings Book Club" well, I received some trial books, which I thought would make excellent Christmas presents and also some books I really wanted!! COOL!!  SO, I was on the Crossings site one afternoon and seen a book that I was "inspired" to buy, I just knew I had to buy it... come to find out, that when I gave this book to a church member, It was just what they were talking about in the church!!! WOW!! I also purchased one of the most beautiful 2009 planners I've  seen to date; not only did I purchase one for my good friend, but also for the church!  Now here is the awesome part of this story...........

     LATER that day??........I was lying in bed just watching T.V. I heard someone knock on the door, my father in the living room, so I just figured it was someone from next door he knew..... so a little later I came out to get something to drink. My father handed me an envelope. He said that someone dropped it off for me and said,"This is for Eve, I am from the church" and my father said he pointed in the direction the church was. So, I picked up the envelope, opened it, and INSIDE the envelope was a Christmas card, that simply said "Merry Christmas" and there was a $50.00 Wal-mart Gift card inside! I just sat down and cried!!!! No name was inside this card!!

SO, my friends, the only thing I can tell you all, is yes, this has been a very tough year, but it is Christmas.... It is not all about you this year, it is about how you are! These books did not cost me a fortune, and I live on disability. I just thought of how they could help others! I NEVER expected ANYTHING in return NOTHING!! But somewhere, somewhere outthere, for those of you who never heard of the Bible and the scripture that says (Paraphrasing here) for whatever you give, comes back at  you tenfold.... it is really true! Not only money, but love, acceptance, a book in this case, to help someone... That is how I see it this year!!

I end this entry this Christmas Eve to all ... Merry Christmas... praying for you all, no matter what your circumstance may be, no matter where you are on your life's path... God IS watching and HE is waiting for you to accept HIS son, Jesus Christ into your heart!! All you have to do, is MEAN IT from your heart, and just ask HIM!! You do not have to be a master of prayer! All you need to do... is start with a simple prayer.......like this:

Dear Jesus, I know that you died on the cross for all my sins... I know that you are the son of God the Father... I ask you to please forgive me and all my sins be washed by the blood you shed for me and I ask you to please come into my heart and be my Savior Jesus Christ over my life! I thank you Jesus for dying on Calvary for all my sins! I open my heart to you right now! AMEN!

Its as simple as that!!

IF you said that prayer? Find a local church, Find a GOOD PASTOR... and the most important part? READ YOUR BIBLE!! or get one free! You can even read the bible online!!

Just google it!! May you all have a Blessed Christmas as well as a TRULY BLESSED 2009! One day at a time......God Bless!.........Eveie

"Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, being watchful to his end with all perserverance and supplication for all the saints-"Ephesians 6:18

Happy New Year Everyone!!

Wow, it HAS been awhile since I posted a blog! Well, I decided I would delete the last one, due to, well it was just to hard to read it! Yes, now living in Shelby, Montana. I thought, yes THOUGHT I met such an awesome guy! He had my heart, I say HAD! Then ripped it out and just handed it back to me in pieces, and again and again!! Why do we let guys do that to us? Well in my case? I knew he had a brain injury and I just couldn't walk away! I knew how many times people would just see me for MY DISABILTY and that was it! So maybe that was it? WHO KNOWS! But yes I feel in love with him, and it was awesome for awhile! I learned my lesson about the "best friend" thing! How manipulating she turned out to be! But that is an entire new blog!

As you can see from my poetry in the 2006 page, well, you can see how the entire ordeal went! Sad but true!! Anyways...... that was then? This is now!

2006 is OVER!! YAY! I am trying to focus on the good things that happened in 2006. After doctors told me I would never walk? On October 23rd, 2006? I finally was able to WALK! Praise the Lord! and guess what? I am still walking!! I have re-dedicatd my life back to the Lord, found a great church and love every minte of it!

I think last night, New Year's Eve I was sad. Sad to be alone for the first time on New Year's Eve. I Do not drink anymore, so I just went walking. YAY how joyous that was to do! I kept on walking, I walked downtown to say good-bye to my "old life" to my surprise? Bones for Fido, a band I saw the VERY first time I ventured out when I first came to Shelby, and yes I was still on my scooter...lol was playing downtown!! WAY COOL! I thank GOD that I was able to go inside, and NOT DRINK , have fun sitting with Adam, the EXCELLENT DRUMMER's wife and have fun. I think I danced every dance, ALONE, I didn't even care if I was dancing with anyone or not! I was just like.. WOW! Here I am, DANCING!! ON NEW YEAR's EVE! WOO HOO!! I drank Coke's all night and had a blast! At Midnight? They handed out Champagne, well I ONLY drank a sip and handed my glass to someone else. I just couldnt see myself drinking at ALL! I just wanted to dance!! I danced ALL NIGHT and then? At 1 am? I walked home! it was soooooo cold! But I remember looking up at the clear sky, the moon, the glittering snow. Listening to the snow crunch under my feet. I cried thinking wow, I am walking! Something NOONE should ever take for granted ever!! Yes, I will tell you it was sad to not have anyone to kiss on New Year's Eve at midnight, but as soon as I got home? My little Meower, my companion animal cat was waiting for me, and I picked her up and hugged her and got "Kitty kisses" and I have to say? Those are the best kind!!

I also have to say I am no longer a DJ. I have left Dmusic to pursue other options in real life. I would like to get more involved in my church. It was a hard descion to make? But I got to thinking on how much time I was spending on my computer to put together each show, resaerching Indie artists, putting together playlists, etc. etc. This is time I could be spending more invloved in my church!! With God! So, I have come to that "crossroad" in my life where I had to choose a path, and this is the one I have chosen.  I have been on the air for 2 years. It is time I spend time in other areas. For HIS purpose. I would like so much to get involved in Music Ministries, maybe putting together Power Point for my church? Or just being where I am needed.

I do Hope everyone has a blessed New Year! Be THANKFUL for the small things, and with prayer comes the BIG things!!

MANY MANY Thank you's to all of your support in 2006 and always!! GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!

Blessings,

Eveie

Bible verse of the day:

"The righteous cry, and the LORD heareth, and delivereth them out of all their troubles. The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit."  Psalm 34:17-18

Hey Everyone  Hope everyone had a nice Halloween and will have a great Thanksgiving!

We had a small party here for the elderly folks and even though I am not much into Halloween, the residents said since the party was my idea it wasnt right that I didnt come, so I did...lol.. and here is my goofy costume...rofl!! I was a cat, with black eyeliner as my markings, an ear headband, my cats collar as my necklace, complete with her current tags..hehehe, and I used black socks as my paws! I also used her cat toy as my tail! The folks got a big kick out of it, and it was all in fun!

Hard to believe this year has gone by so fast  As far as the gentle soul, he just got up last week and decided to split out of here! He left everything he had and just left Great Falls!!!! Noone seems to know where he went! Oh well, guess he decided it was time to move on! Where ever he is , hope he is doing well!
As for me? Not much happening here...lol Just taking it easy enjoying the break from planning shows and Internet radio for awhile, and taking care of ME! My Epidural block is still holding....YAY!!  and I am still not looking for another station as of yet, for I have been too busy with our local public access tv station doing camera and graphics for our UGF games and shows here, along with City Commission meetings, and the upcoming mayor race as that heats up. PLEASE VOTE this TUESDAY November 8th in your local elections and have a voice on what goes on in YOUR areas!! Feel free to email me at any time!! EMAIL Eveie

Take care, miss you all!!!
Eveie

Good Morning!! It is a beautiful morning here in Montana, as I am writing this, watching such a beautiful sunset!! GOD IS SO AWESOME!! The "Gentle Soul's" cold went away, Praise GOD! and  he had his surgery yesterday, and everything went well!!! I spent most of the day with him yesterday at the hospital, and brought him up some books to read and had lunch with him while I was there. He is scheduled to come home sometime today, so I am waiting on the call to go and pick him up, and get him settled in. He called me a few times last night, and was very happy I was there when he he was moved into his room. LOL... it was perfect timing, I was getting to his room, as soon as he was coming off the elevator from recovery! I met a wonderful Cree woman while I was waiting in the Surgery waiting room, her daughter was having a Gastric Bypass procedure done. She was very sweet, 67 years old, and talking with her, made the time go by so quickly. In our talk I found out she was once a Methodist preacher, funny how God just leads us to people, isn't it? She was such a loving woman, and our talk was wonderful! When I left, I gave her a kiss on the cheek, and off I went to Doug's room, when they came out and told me he would be upstairs in 10 minutes. So Evelyn? if you are reading this, it was an honor to sit and talk with you and I hope Theresa is doing well!! May God Bless you both!

On a different subject, and this will be the last time anyone will see me bring this up!!! I was told by a co owner of Krush radio to "take out of your blog the fact you were fired for doing a Christian show, and put you were fired for not following the rules" Ok I will explain this in full, ONE TIME! So, please, pay attention. I asked one of the owners, if I could do an Inspirational show on Sunday Mornings, his response was that" I don't want "THEM" on the station" meaning Christians. I THOUGHT he said it was ok to do a one time show, and not one on a regular basis, somehow, he says I "misunderstood" this conversation, to be honest? He did say he didn't want "THEM" on the station, but what does it matter? Krush has several genre's it plays, including, country, Latin, rock, Indie, dance, etc. WHY not a Christian show???? To discriminate against one genre, in my opinion, is just wrong, especially since we are told at the beginning, we can play what we want on our shows, afterall, they are OUR shows. So, in closing of this matter, the fact I was fired for a) not following the "rules" (in which fact, there is no specific rule stating do not play Christian music) or b) I was fired for playing 2 hours of Christian music, doesnt matter now does it, GOD AND I know that It was because I played Christian music, and one of the owners didnt like it, and got mad. WHat for? Only God and him knows that question. Personally, it was an excellent show, I had many requests, and do not regret doing the show at all. I do not regret being fired for something I believe so strongly in. So thats it. and I will lay this all at the cross, and thats where it will all stay. But as for me? I will continue to follow Jesus, my Lord and Savior, I will NOT BE ASHAMED of GOD! I have re-dedicated my life back to God, and there is nothing nor  man/woman on this planet that is going to stand in my way of my committment to Jesus!.....PLT!

Take care everyone!! May God Bless and Guide you all!!! Thank you for all your support, prayers, and most of all, your kindness to me always. Be strong in your faith!! Your life depends on it!! GOD bless!!

In Jesus' precious name,

Eveie

Hey Everyone! Just a new part of my website! I will do my best to get this blog up to date, and add things from my Yahoo 360 Blog! I have deleted my myspace.com space, and now will just have my http://djev.dmusic.net/ site and also my http://360.yahoo.com/montanalady35 site. Check there for now for my latest blogs.

As you know, or if you didnt hear, I am no longer with Krush radio as of today after playing a 2 hour show of ALL Christian Music. Its ok though, no worries, I obviously thought it would be ok, but must have gotten my "wires crossed" on that one. But it was an EXCELLENT show, PTL! I am working on getting it on this site, so stay tuned and keep checking back!! God Bless u and I hope everyone enjoys the sites!!

Much Love!

God Bless you all for all your love and support!!

Eveie